Sunday, March 30, 2014

[Song] Dear Mr President





Lyrics: 


Dear Mr. President,
Come take a walk with me.
Let's pretend we're just two people and
You're not better than me.
I'd like to ask you some questions if we can speak honestly.

What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street?
Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep?
What do you feel when you look in the mirror?
Are you proud?

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye
And tell me why?

Dear Mr. President,
Were you a lonely boy?
Are you a lonely boy?
Are you a lonely boy?
How can you say
No child is left behind?
We're not dumb and we're not blind.
They're all sitting in your cells
While you pave the road to hell.

What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away?
And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay?
I can only imagine what the first lady has to say
You've come a long way from whiskey and cocaine.

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye?

Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Minimum wage with a baby on the way
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Rebuilding your house after the bombs took them away
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Building a bed out of a cardboard box
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
You don't know nothing 'bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
Oh

How do you sleep at night?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Dear Mr. President,
You'd never take a walk with me.
Would you?

Comments: 
This is not a new song but I was introduced this song by my bro only today. And I'm emotionally touched by the song and the beautifully written lyrics. Ahh, I just can't hold my tears any longer... 

从高中开始一直到现在总有同学或朋友问我为什么那么关心时事和政治等有关的新闻。很多人还是总爱把关你我屁事挂在嘴边。要说这一句话或是什么我看法中立,真的很简单,真的 effortless。你的未来在你手里,你不去创造、你不去改变,10年以后还是一样。。。*不好意思,又废话了*

The two major events that I'm concerned recently: the missing plane in Msia and black box legislation in Tw. And as the title, this song dedicated to them: How do you sleep while the rest of us cry? How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye? How do you walk with your head held high? Can you even look me in the eye? 

你们都加油,好吗?

有些言语,只是言语,不必在乎;有些风景,只是风景,不必留恋;有些心情,也只是心情,不是一生。每个人都会累,没人能为你承担所有的伤悲,人总有那么一段时间要学会自己长大。

Sunday, March 23, 2014

给自己加油!

那种从不知所措到有希望,等待期待,然后换来的是一次又次的失望的感觉真的不好受。厄,这形容未免太像 MH370 受害者和所有关心这则新闻的人吧!不过 don't get me wrong。 我没有要讨论这事件,而我要说的是:我自己当下的心情。

以前中小学写作文最爱的开场白:转眼间光阴似箭的,不知不觉的已经回来一个月了。而我却。。。我却还是呆在家里,无所事事的,连最基本的part time工作也还找不到!日子开始变得很颓废甚至感觉很奢侈。看见同学们为自己前途奋斗的当儿,我却在这里颓废,蹉跎岁月真的会很有罪恶感!

我还记得大二的时候去in 了一份工作,工作到手了。就因为我没化妆/装扮,所以就被拒绝了。嗯,我的长相和我的皮肤确实是有问题的 (不是自甘堕落,是事实。写了又删,删了又写,最后选择不解释)。嗯,昨天又丢去了一份工作的机会。其实也没什么,其实已经到手了,工资低我接受,要学要背的东西很多我知道,要过training period我也懂。只是那工作时间实在不适合我,所以就这样眼巴巴的看着机会溜走。真心觉得我自己不适合当服务员/sales,除了样貌,最缺乏的还是自信心。

一直刷新po 工作的网页,筛选后,有适合的就马上 edit resume 然后立刻把email给寄出。每天都在重复做一样的事情,一样的希望,等待,期待,然后不是没有消息就是失望的收场。有时候怀疑自己的做法,有时候怀疑自己的决定,有时候信心爆满,有时候堕落,有时候有时候。。。看见长辈们为我找不到工作而心烦,也许这才是真正压力的源头。新的一周又来临了,各式各样的烦恼又。。。

人家总说机会是留给准备好的人,这句话我想了很久,很可惜我一直没有答案。不是没有准备,只是不知道要怎样才算是最完善的准备。厄,我矛盾了!


我相信我们会更好的,一切会更好的!


不得不说 anita prediction 真的很准。写这篇blog 之前随便按了一下,然后这就是今日的结果。This is no time to develop a negative attitude. If you think you can, you can! This is a great time to try your hand at something you never believed you could do.

好啦,乱写一通后终要和现实低头。除了坚持还是坚持;除了加油,还是加油。



我们不得不长大长大,成长的现实告诉我年少时的想法是如此的可笑。不管你多大年龄,过去发生了什么,错过了什么,失去了什么,做错了什么,只要你不放弃,坚持不断的探索和行动,就会有路,就会找到一条属于自己的路!

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Random update

Time flies and so I am back here for three weeks.

Three weeks wasted. Yes basically I was doing nothing at home.
Can't help but there's so many things happened lately.

Week 1: Grandma is suffering from the stroke reoccurence for the third times on the third day I was back. Tearing like a nut in the middle of the night, I don't know what to do. I don't know how to pray,  but I do pray and hope in my own way. Helpless, clueless and hopeless were how I feel. Ahh, as long as now she's fine and her condition is stable, it's definitely a relief for all of us !!!

Week 2: Received the assessment letter from the CPA like finally, so that all the process can take place. Busy with all the regular routines. Body check-up, health insurance, health check, police check and all the stuffs for the application. Hope everything will be fine.

Week 3: Job hunting ~ Ahh who said it's easy to find a job, seriously ?! I hope I can find an internship which is at least accounting job related or just a part time or even full time so that I can learn something and earn my pocket money. Have to admit that I wasn't in a very good mood, I get annoyed easily especially when my friends or relatives asking what and how am I doing over here. Seriously, I don't know how to answer them yet I don't have an answer.

Week 4: I can't believe that I've been wasting time week by week. Even though I went for an interview last Sunday for an internship position, but I don't think I will get it. Even if I get it, I still need another part time job. Things are getting tensed recently. Trying to send as many resumes as possible, though I know the pay can be as low as $8/ hr. No choice, but to bear with it. I need to be financially independent. But unfortunately, there' s still no news. Ahh I wish these stressed yet sentimental days will end like soon, really soon.

It's so annoying yet embarrassing actually. I feel so despair every time I think of it, like seriously my dreams are shattered. Most of my friends in Msia were looking for job, and yes they nailed it. They are now working in Big4 as junior accountant. No matter what position, at least they're working in something they're interested in and related to their career. But I'm here, eagerly looking for a job too. Unfortunately, it's not related to my future career at all. Am I in the right path ? Or I'd made the wrong decision since I decided not to continue my studies ?! 见步行步~

Life is hard. Ahhh, hoping for a better tomorrow。



记住该记住的,忘记该忘记的。如果你觉得不爽,你也就抬眼望窗外,世界是很大的,风景很美的,机会很多,人生很短,不要蜷缩在一小块阴影里。如果你的生活已处于低谷,那就,大胆走。因为你怎样走都是在向上。

Sunday, March 16, 2014

Good Luck !

Tomorrow is the day. The day for my first formal interview in my life.

Although it's just an internship, part time and it's not paid. But still, I hope I can really get it! I need the opportunity for my very first step to gain experience as a newbie and also leaving my comfort zone. I'm keen and I'm eager to learn and to expose myself to something really related to my career.

I am kinda nervous now, as I'm typing. I don't know whether I could handle the situation especially those awkward questions they asked in the interview session as this is my really first time. All I can do is to calm myself and to try my very best. Wish for the best and prepare for the worst. No matter what will be the outcome, at least I will gain some experiences from the interview.

Ahh, wishing myself good luck and all the best.


老实讲,自己做出选择而活下去的人生,让人感觉舒服多了。正因为这是自己做出的选择,这人生才可以无怨无悔,这条路才可以不慌不忙、不急不火地走下去,因为你知道你随时可以退场,所以你不必这么急着去死,人生再绝望,也可以留下来,慢慢欣赏。

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

我该如何存在?


多少人走著卻困在原地
多少人活著卻如同死去
多少人愛著卻好似分離
多少人笑著卻滿含淚滴

誰知道我們該去向何處
誰明白生命已變為何物
是否找個藉口繼續苟活
或是展翅高飛保持憤怒
我該如何存在

多少次榮耀卻感覺屈辱
多少次狂喜卻倍受痛楚
多少次幸福卻心如刀絞
多少次燦爛卻失魂落魄

誰知道我們該夢歸何處
誰明白尊嚴已淪為何物
是否找個理由隨波逐流
或是勇敢前行掙脫牢籠
我該如何存在

誰知道我們該去向何處
誰明白生命已變為何物
是否找個藉口繼續苟活
或是展翅高飛保持憤怒
誰知道我們該夢歸何處
誰明白尊嚴已淪為何物
是否找個理由隨波逐流
或是勇敢前行掙脫牢籠
我該如何存在





















最近大家对这首歌并不陌生吧
相信 很多人都是透过gem的歌声才认识这首歌
嗯,我真的是因为她,今年才认识这首歌
歌词 真的唱到心坎里去了

~我该如何存在~


心里有阳光,雨天也是一种浪漫;心里下着雨,晴天也是一种遭罪。人生快乐不快乐看心情,心情好不好看心态,心态中不中看修炼。人生不如意事常八九,快乐的人不是没有痛苦,只是他们都修炼了一颗强大的心,因而不被痛苦所左右。拥有强大的内心,就不是生活左右你,而是你驾驭生活。