Tuesday, September 9, 2014

中秋节快乐!

那首老歌这样唱着:月亮圆 月亮圆 月亮照在我的家 没有春夏秋冬的家 流传千年...

已经很多年没有庆祝中秋节了,所以说真的也没有什么期待。就像普通日子一样,日子还是一样的过。今年不买月饼,月饼都是别人送给姑姑的,够吃就好。星期四下课时,班上的老师兴致勃勃向我推荐周日的 moon festival event. 上网查一下,觉得挺有趣的。原来每年都有庆典,恕我孤陋寡闻。也许顺便可以帮我解解思乡之情,所以周日又往工作的地方那里走了一趟。

是有点失落,毕竟是文化的差异。印象中马来西亚也没有怎样庆祝中秋节,就记得学校有制作灯笼比赛、猜灯谜、等等跟灯笼有关的节目吧。如果没错应该还会有24节令鼓的表演。但,至少是见识了越南人如何庆祝中秋节,也见识了一支很棒的舞狮队伍。嗯,人山人海,不过感觉整个event很 commercialised,少了推广和传承文化的味道。还是因为其余的两个舞台都在说越南语,我不明白所以feel不到!? 当晚最大的舞台的缺陷就是那三角形的帐篷。再好的表演也必须要有个可以发挥得好的舞台,很可惜站在后边,基本上完全看不见台上的情况。舞狮表演的时候尚早,我站的位置还算ok,不怎么受到影响。 X-factor 的 Damy Im 出场时,就算成功挤进人群里,我也看不见。所以宁愿站在远处遥望。在这里4年了,至少感受到中秋节的味道。Overall comment: It's a great event and it's definitely an eye-opener for me. 


我对这四个字特别有感觉 -止于至善-

很棒的一支舞狮队
去了那个event更想家,更想念那些我们以自己独特方式去庆祝的中秋节。But how to celebrate? I really dont have an answer for this. Even though the school has got moon festival celebration, but I never join before. 也不知道为什么自己突然变得那么感触,也许这就是所谓的每逢佳节倍思亲吧。

想了想,印象中最后一次庆祝也已经是10年前的事了。一个人的中秋节,一个人赏月,一个人吃月饼,一个没有灯笼的中秋节。吃着久违的翡翠口味的月吧,特别想念小时候跟哥哥和表兄姐妹一起在庭院嘻哈玩闹的日子。哪怕是把家里的旧报纸、杂草等东西来烧也玩得不亦乐乎。嗯,那些年,简单快乐知足的我们。想家。想提灯笼。想童年。

中秋节快乐!

每次被人排挤的时候,你总会以为自己错了,每次被人谩骂的时候,你因此郁闷了几天,生活中少不了一些无缘无故看不起你的人,也会碰到一些无缘无故讨厌你的人,不必因此而影响自己的心情。在你回家的路上,总会遇到几条疯狗在路边乱吠,你只需继续前进,无须理会。生活就是一边受伤,一边学会坚强。

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Random

Hmm, it's been a while for me to be here. 

Well, life is so-so at the moment as there's nothing special or memorable for me to blog actually. The same shits but different day. Nahh, no shit, just basic daily routine with some part-time jobs going on. Even there's any special moment, I would have forgotten by the time I feel like writing. 

Spent the afternoon, reading my old blog entries from the latest to the oldest. Reading through the blog really bring back tonnes of nostalgia and memories. The best part would be recalling all the wonderful memories during high school and ausmat. I blogged about anything and everything daily back then. It's amazing to realise how much I have changed or should I use the word "grow"?! LOL. 



Then I started to realise that I hardly write any post since I was uni, probably 2011. There's like a lost of memory between, while I was in uni. I had to admit that I don't really have an enjoyable time in uni as I hardly have any social event to attend. But it's really sad to realise all these now, I mean I should have realise them while I was still studying. Sad isn't it ?! 

Guess I really need to write more often and find back the passion in blogging, else I won't have anything to read in the future when I wanna recall my past, LOL. 


= Now I realised how horrible can my writing be. Super cacat. = 




不要见谁都掏心掏肺,至交就那么几个,不该认识的人,皆是生命里的过客,无法实现的事,就把缺憾看成一种美。简单纯朴的行走,也是一种漂亮的活法。我们要学会孤独,喧嚣是世界的外表,孤单才是它的灵魂;要学会忘记,记忆终会死去,现实还在延续;要学会独立,陪你走到终点的,唯有自己。

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

光良&曹格 - 少年





作詞:管啟源
作曲:光良
編曲:Azlan Abu Hassan
演唱:光良/曹格

(光)你又想起某個夏天 熱鬧海岸線
(曹)記憶中的那個少年 驕傲的宣言
(光)伸出雙手就能 擁抱全世界
(曹)相信所有的夢想 一定會實現
(光)一切看起來 都不會太遙遠
(合)轉眼之間 過了幾年
(曹)輕浮的語言 都已慢慢沉澱
(光)即使難免 會變得更加洗煉
(合)我們 不曾妥協
(光)那是我們 都回不去從前
(曹)幸好還可以堅持 當時的信念
(光)世界嘗試改變
(合)當初的那個少年
(曹)那是我們 都回不去的從前
(光)當你站在 那個夏天的海岸線
(曹)我們還是心裡面
(合)那個偏執的少年
(曹)你又想起某個夏天 熱鬧海岸線 嗚...
(光)記憶中的那個少年 驕傲的宣言 嗚...
(曹)伸出雙手就能 擁抱全世界
(光)相信所有的夢想 一定會實現
(合)我們 不曾妥協

(曹)那是我們 都回不去的從前
(光)幸好還可以 堅持當時的信念
(曹)世界嘗試改變
(合)當初的那個少年
(光)那是我們 都回不去的從前
(曹)當你站在 那個夏天的海岸線
(光)我們還是心裡面
(合)那個偏執的少年
(曹)喔...
(光)喔...
(合)那是我們 都回不去的從前
幸好還可以 堅持當時的信念
(曹)世界嘗試改變
(合)當初的那個少年
喔...喔...
那是我們 都回不去的從前
當你站在 那個夏天的海岸線
(光)我們還是心裡面
(合)那個偏執的少年
(光)喔...
(曹)喔...
(光)嗚...
(曹)嗚...

Thursday, July 31, 2014

戴佩妮-往前飛


往前飛

Flying Ahead

作詞:戴佩妮
作曲:戴佩妮
編曲:戴佩妮


*我只想要往前飛 能飛多遠也無所謂
    我討厭在這裡徘徊 我厭倦我流眼淚
    只管閉上眼睛往前追 若錯過太多就有所謂
    我害怕了後悔 那種遺憾的滋味

#放開那些事與願違 放開那些是是非非
    轉過身 已走遠 請留住我的美
    忘掉那些曾經依偎 忘掉那些溫柔相隨
    回過頭 已終結 只能給自己一個 你曾給的安慰


Repeat *,#


放開那些事與願違 放開那些是是非非
轉過身 已走遠 請留住我的美
忘掉那些曾經依偎 忘掉那些溫柔相隨
回過頭 已終結 只能給自己一個

我只想要往前飛 能飛多遠也無所謂
我害怕了後悔 一種遺憾的滋味 往前飛

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Random

Oops, 我又很久沒上來這裡了。
是被我遺忘了還是真的純粹懶惰而已?! 
来报告一下最近的状况:
简单的来说,生活很充实,很愉快。
嗯,不再是无所事事~至少这样可以不胡思乱想。




人总要慢慢成熟,将这个浮华的世界看得更清楚,看穿伪装的真实,看清隐匿的虚假,很多原本相信的事便不再相信。但是,要相信,这个世界里美好总要多过阴暗,欢乐总要多过苦难,还有很多事,值得你一如既往的相信。

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

鄭秀文 - 終身美麗





呵呵,很久没有上来这里写点什么的了。

最近有点小忙,不过日子过得比较充实。

至少我很享受当下过的每一个时刻。



还没有思绪,所以先送上我最近一直在听的这一首老歌。



Tuesday, May 6, 2014

鄭秀文 - 給自己的信







很相信能成就大愛 很相信能炫耀自己
很貪心 願天天很多美好的派對
寫封信來留住大志 寫封信來提示自己
寫得低 是心中很多似詩的細碎

懷疑我當天幾多歲 令我寫了一句不怕流淚
懷疑我永遠不會累 就來十行列明十個壯舉

讓我闖出新世界 交出真個性
假使想愛 必會找到親愛伴侶
突然十年便過去 方知歲月冷漠似水
就算筆跡不會變 紙張不會皺
偏偏想笑 竟會得到灰暗情緒
默然從頭讀過去 一句一句太乾脆
一個一個已粉碎

祝福我能遊歷萬國 怎麼我還奴役自己
不甘心 在天天很多錯失的證據
這封信如明亮大鏡 這封信能明白自己
寫得低 但怎麼拋低理想的散去

懷疑我當天幾多歲 令我寫了一句不怕流淚
懷疑我永遠不會累 就來十行列明十個壯舉

讓我闖出新世界 交出真個性
更多更詳盡歌詞 在 ※ Mojim.com 魔鏡歌詞網 
假使想愛 必會找到親愛伴侶
突然廿年便過去 方知歲月冷漠似水
就算筆跡不會變 紙張不會皺
偏偏想笑 竟會得到灰暗情緒
默然從頭讀過去 一句一句太乾脆

偏偏想再追 難道拼命過活都可算創舉 Woo
偏偏想再追 融合世代太壞都可當應許
啦啦啦 啦啦啦 啦啦啦 Keep on believing
啦啦啦 啦啦啦 啦啦啦 Keep on believing
Keep on believing
Keep on believing

讓我闖出新世界 交出真個性
假使想愛 必會找到親愛伴侶
突然廿年便過去 方知歲月冷漠似水
就算 紙張不會皺 甚麼都生鏽
偏偏想笑 竟會得到灰暗情緒
默然從頭讀過去 一句一句太乾脆
一個一個已粉碎

很相信能成就大愛 很相信能炫耀自己
很貪心 願天天很多美好的派對

Monday, April 14, 2014

你快乐吗?

也许,我只想说救命。哎,最近又emo了。

每天反复的过着不理想,也许也不是我很想过的生活。而身边的每个人每天都不停地提醒我先苦后甜那以后美丽的日子。当然,我也明白不经风雨哪有彩虹。但,认真地想了想,人们不是常说要活在当下吗?

如果当下不快乐,去奢望将来的快乐,那又有什么意义呢?
如果当下不快乐,又有谁可以保证在不久的将来,若苦尽甘来后一定会快乐呢?

也许如果我是潇洒派,我会选择放手。很可惜,我不是。我没这勇气立下这个决定,于是矛盾继续徘徊。

不知道要到什么时候,我才可以体会和享受present的真正含义。



PS. 这是上周写的文,emo貌似过去了。周五周六踏出自己的comfort zone,参与活动和上课active些,连续遇见和认识了各式各样的人。在不同的谈话中,也许从话题中开窍也许也有被开导了。不知道这positive的现象会维持多久,但至少现在是有效的。

时间,可以教会我们很多东西,告诉我们,被伤过,也被爱过,只是错过了很多,幸福过的曾经,忧伤了未来。如果,在沧海的那头,没有了等待,那就先停下来,就算飞过沧海,也不会找到答案,倒不如先看看自己是不是飞错了方向。

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

[Song] Shila Amzah 想你的夜





我是歌手第二季 - 第7期:茜拉Shila Amzah《想你的夜》



到最后最喜欢的还是这一首和最长的电影~


Sunday, March 30, 2014

[Song] Dear Mr President





Lyrics: 


Dear Mr. President,
Come take a walk with me.
Let's pretend we're just two people and
You're not better than me.
I'd like to ask you some questions if we can speak honestly.

What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street?
Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep?
What do you feel when you look in the mirror?
Are you proud?

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye
And tell me why?

Dear Mr. President,
Were you a lonely boy?
Are you a lonely boy?
Are you a lonely boy?
How can you say
No child is left behind?
We're not dumb and we're not blind.
They're all sitting in your cells
While you pave the road to hell.

What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away?
And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay?
I can only imagine what the first lady has to say
You've come a long way from whiskey and cocaine.

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye?

Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Minimum wage with a baby on the way
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Rebuilding your house after the bombs took them away
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Building a bed out of a cardboard box
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
You don't know nothing 'bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
Oh

How do you sleep at night?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Dear Mr. President,
You'd never take a walk with me.
Would you?

Comments: 
This is not a new song but I was introduced this song by my bro only today. And I'm emotionally touched by the song and the beautifully written lyrics. Ahh, I just can't hold my tears any longer... 

从高中开始一直到现在总有同学或朋友问我为什么那么关心时事和政治等有关的新闻。很多人还是总爱把关你我屁事挂在嘴边。要说这一句话或是什么我看法中立,真的很简单,真的 effortless。你的未来在你手里,你不去创造、你不去改变,10年以后还是一样。。。*不好意思,又废话了*

The two major events that I'm concerned recently: the missing plane in Msia and black box legislation in Tw. And as the title, this song dedicated to them: How do you sleep while the rest of us cry? How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye? How do you walk with your head held high? Can you even look me in the eye? 

你们都加油,好吗?

有些言语,只是言语,不必在乎;有些风景,只是风景,不必留恋;有些心情,也只是心情,不是一生。每个人都会累,没人能为你承担所有的伤悲,人总有那么一段时间要学会自己长大。

Sunday, March 23, 2014

给自己加油!

那种从不知所措到有希望,等待期待,然后换来的是一次又次的失望的感觉真的不好受。厄,这形容未免太像 MH370 受害者和所有关心这则新闻的人吧!不过 don't get me wrong。 我没有要讨论这事件,而我要说的是:我自己当下的心情。

以前中小学写作文最爱的开场白:转眼间光阴似箭的,不知不觉的已经回来一个月了。而我却。。。我却还是呆在家里,无所事事的,连最基本的part time工作也还找不到!日子开始变得很颓废甚至感觉很奢侈。看见同学们为自己前途奋斗的当儿,我却在这里颓废,蹉跎岁月真的会很有罪恶感!

我还记得大二的时候去in 了一份工作,工作到手了。就因为我没化妆/装扮,所以就被拒绝了。嗯,我的长相和我的皮肤确实是有问题的 (不是自甘堕落,是事实。写了又删,删了又写,最后选择不解释)。嗯,昨天又丢去了一份工作的机会。其实也没什么,其实已经到手了,工资低我接受,要学要背的东西很多我知道,要过training period我也懂。只是那工作时间实在不适合我,所以就这样眼巴巴的看着机会溜走。真心觉得我自己不适合当服务员/sales,除了样貌,最缺乏的还是自信心。

一直刷新po 工作的网页,筛选后,有适合的就马上 edit resume 然后立刻把email给寄出。每天都在重复做一样的事情,一样的希望,等待,期待,然后不是没有消息就是失望的收场。有时候怀疑自己的做法,有时候怀疑自己的决定,有时候信心爆满,有时候堕落,有时候有时候。。。看见长辈们为我找不到工作而心烦,也许这才是真正压力的源头。新的一周又来临了,各式各样的烦恼又。。。

人家总说机会是留给准备好的人,这句话我想了很久,很可惜我一直没有答案。不是没有准备,只是不知道要怎样才算是最完善的准备。厄,我矛盾了!


我相信我们会更好的,一切会更好的!


不得不说 anita prediction 真的很准。写这篇blog 之前随便按了一下,然后这就是今日的结果。This is no time to develop a negative attitude. If you think you can, you can! This is a great time to try your hand at something you never believed you could do.

好啦,乱写一通后终要和现实低头。除了坚持还是坚持;除了加油,还是加油。



我们不得不长大长大,成长的现实告诉我年少时的想法是如此的可笑。不管你多大年龄,过去发生了什么,错过了什么,失去了什么,做错了什么,只要你不放弃,坚持不断的探索和行动,就会有路,就会找到一条属于自己的路!

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Random update

Time flies and so I am back here for three weeks.

Three weeks wasted. Yes basically I was doing nothing at home.
Can't help but there's so many things happened lately.

Week 1: Grandma is suffering from the stroke reoccurence for the third times on the third day I was back. Tearing like a nut in the middle of the night, I don't know what to do. I don't know how to pray,  but I do pray and hope in my own way. Helpless, clueless and hopeless were how I feel. Ahh, as long as now she's fine and her condition is stable, it's definitely a relief for all of us !!!

Week 2: Received the assessment letter from the CPA like finally, so that all the process can take place. Busy with all the regular routines. Body check-up, health insurance, health check, police check and all the stuffs for the application. Hope everything will be fine.

Week 3: Job hunting ~ Ahh who said it's easy to find a job, seriously ?! I hope I can find an internship which is at least accounting job related or just a part time or even full time so that I can learn something and earn my pocket money. Have to admit that I wasn't in a very good mood, I get annoyed easily especially when my friends or relatives asking what and how am I doing over here. Seriously, I don't know how to answer them yet I don't have an answer.

Week 4: I can't believe that I've been wasting time week by week. Even though I went for an interview last Sunday for an internship position, but I don't think I will get it. Even if I get it, I still need another part time job. Things are getting tensed recently. Trying to send as many resumes as possible, though I know the pay can be as low as $8/ hr. No choice, but to bear with it. I need to be financially independent. But unfortunately, there' s still no news. Ahh I wish these stressed yet sentimental days will end like soon, really soon.

It's so annoying yet embarrassing actually. I feel so despair every time I think of it, like seriously my dreams are shattered. Most of my friends in Msia were looking for job, and yes they nailed it. They are now working in Big4 as junior accountant. No matter what position, at least they're working in something they're interested in and related to their career. But I'm here, eagerly looking for a job too. Unfortunately, it's not related to my future career at all. Am I in the right path ? Or I'd made the wrong decision since I decided not to continue my studies ?! 见步行步~

Life is hard. Ahhh, hoping for a better tomorrow。



记住该记住的,忘记该忘记的。如果你觉得不爽,你也就抬眼望窗外,世界是很大的,风景很美的,机会很多,人生很短,不要蜷缩在一小块阴影里。如果你的生活已处于低谷,那就,大胆走。因为你怎样走都是在向上。

Sunday, March 16, 2014

Good Luck !

Tomorrow is the day. The day for my first formal interview in my life.

Although it's just an internship, part time and it's not paid. But still, I hope I can really get it! I need the opportunity for my very first step to gain experience as a newbie and also leaving my comfort zone. I'm keen and I'm eager to learn and to expose myself to something really related to my career.

I am kinda nervous now, as I'm typing. I don't know whether I could handle the situation especially those awkward questions they asked in the interview session as this is my really first time. All I can do is to calm myself and to try my very best. Wish for the best and prepare for the worst. No matter what will be the outcome, at least I will gain some experiences from the interview.

Ahh, wishing myself good luck and all the best.


老实讲,自己做出选择而活下去的人生,让人感觉舒服多了。正因为这是自己做出的选择,这人生才可以无怨无悔,这条路才可以不慌不忙、不急不火地走下去,因为你知道你随时可以退场,所以你不必这么急着去死,人生再绝望,也可以留下来,慢慢欣赏。

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

我该如何存在?


多少人走著卻困在原地
多少人活著卻如同死去
多少人愛著卻好似分離
多少人笑著卻滿含淚滴

誰知道我們該去向何處
誰明白生命已變為何物
是否找個藉口繼續苟活
或是展翅高飛保持憤怒
我該如何存在

多少次榮耀卻感覺屈辱
多少次狂喜卻倍受痛楚
多少次幸福卻心如刀絞
多少次燦爛卻失魂落魄

誰知道我們該夢歸何處
誰明白尊嚴已淪為何物
是否找個理由隨波逐流
或是勇敢前行掙脫牢籠
我該如何存在

誰知道我們該去向何處
誰明白生命已變為何物
是否找個藉口繼續苟活
或是展翅高飛保持憤怒
誰知道我們該夢歸何處
誰明白尊嚴已淪為何物
是否找個理由隨波逐流
或是勇敢前行掙脫牢籠
我該如何存在





















最近大家对这首歌并不陌生吧
相信 很多人都是透过gem的歌声才认识这首歌
嗯,我真的是因为她,今年才认识这首歌
歌词 真的唱到心坎里去了

~我该如何存在~


心里有阳光,雨天也是一种浪漫;心里下着雨,晴天也是一种遭罪。人生快乐不快乐看心情,心情好不好看心态,心态中不中看修炼。人生不如意事常八九,快乐的人不是没有痛苦,只是他们都修炼了一颗强大的心,因而不被痛苦所左右。拥有强大的内心,就不是生活左右你,而是你驾驭生活。

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

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好久不见~最近有点小忙、有点懒惰。
也好像发生了好多事。
离开了龙床,离开了公主般的生活,又回到现实的生活了。

感恩在我最茫然的时候收到了高中老师的email,名为心灵鸡汤。
不是什么特别的慰问或安慰,只不过是篇forwarded email。
但,这封邮件也来的太及时了。
这也是我们保持联系的方式。

其实内容也没什么,只是把生活里的点滴组成个slides show。
个人认为里头有太多值得我们去深思的话语。
纯粹收藏我自己喜爱的文字与配图。攝影、製作:王旭東



1) 沒有人陪你走一輩子,所以你要適應孤獨,沒有人會幫你一輩子,所以你要奮鬥一生。

2) 人這一輩子,怎麽都是過,與其皺眉頭,不如偷著樂。冬天別嫌冷,夏天別嫌熱,有錢別裝窮,沒錢別擺闊,閒暇養養身,每日找找樂,苦辣酸甜都嘗過,才算沒白活!

3) 人生多有福,想開就知足。思量愚昧苦,聰明就是福。思量饑寒苦,飽暖就是福。思量勞累苦,清閒就是福。思量孤獨苦,友多就是福。福祿系於心,心正得大富!



4) 或淡或雅,花總在綻放;或盈或缺,月總在天上;或高興或痛苦,日子總是在過;或期盼或失望,希望總在眼前;或見或不見,朋友永在心間。 

5) 或淡或雅,花總在綻放;或盈或缺,月總在天上;或高興或痛苦,日子總是在過;或期盼或失望,希望總在眼前;或見或不見,朋友永在心間。 

6) 人生就是一場旅行,不在乎目的地,在乎的應該是沿途的風景以及看風景的心情。



7) 自處超然,處人藹然,靜處澄然,處事斬然,得意淡然,失意泰然。

8) 你出生的時候,你哭著,周圍的人笑著;你逝去的時候,你笑著,而周圍的人在哭!一切都是輪回!~我們都在輪回中!!

9) 個人都有潛在的能量,只是很容易:被習慣所掩蓋,被時間所迷離,被惰性所消磨!

10) 選對老師,智慧一生;選對伴侶,幸福一生;選對環境,快樂一生;選對朋友,甜蜜一生;選對行業,成就一生。



后记:所以说是我选对了老师吗?哈哈。虽然已经毕业4年多快5年了,但永远不会忘记中五时老师给我的很多的机会,很多的第一次。感恩一路有你,老套说一句就是一日为师终生为师咯!


人生,走上坡路要低头,走下坡路要抬头。没有谁的一生能一帆风顺,有得意,也会有失意。臻臻日上之时,切莫骄傲自满,忘了来路的艰辛。既要懂得珍惜,又要懂得谦卑。人生遇到挫折、失意之时,更要学会以积极的心态看待,以进取的精神继续追求。得意时不张狂,失意时不低沉,不以物喜,不以己悲。

Sunday, February 9, 2014

Bonfire Heart

The song just can't get off my mind. I have been listening this song for quite sometimes actually, usually on the radio but I hardly notice the lyrics until today. 



Your mouth is a revolver
Firing bullets in the sky
Your love is like a soldier,
Loyal 'til you die
And I’ve been looking at the stars
For a long, long time
I’ve been putting out fires
All my life

Everybody wants a flame,
They don’t want to get burnt
And today is our turn

[Chorus:]
Days like these lead to...
Nights like this lead to
Love like ours.
You light the spark in my bonfire heart.
People like us—we don’t
Need that much, just some-
One that starts,
Starts the spark in our bonfire hearts

[Verse 2:]
This world is getting colder.
Strangers passing by
No one offers you a shoulder.
No one looks you in the eye.
But I’ve been looking at you
For a long, long time
Just trying to break through,
Trying to make you mine

Everybody wants a flame,
They don’t want to get burnt
Well, today is our turn


Our bonfire hearts
Our bonfire hearts
Our bonfire hearts
You light the spark

People like us—we don’t
Need that much, just some-
One that starts,
Starts the spark in our bonfire hearts

(Our bonfire hearts)

[Chorus]

Monday, January 27, 2014

Introduction of Outbound Love 單戀雙城

Well, I have quite a lot of blog posts pending to write, to express and to reminisce, especially those events that have happened in December 2013. As usual, I will write them when I have got the kick to do so, but hopefully I can still remember them clearly though description is my weakest part ever.

As for now, I am now drafting on the post about the HK drama currently airing, named  單戀雙城, Outbound Love. Frankly, though I like Ruco Chan a.k.a 陳展鵬 and of course his acting but I don't really like both the female actress in the drama. Since I have got nothing to do at home, hmm, that's the only way to kill time. It sounds really pity thou.

The drama is mainly about the relationship of the main characters in two cities i.e. Hong Kong and Malaysia ( Penang and KL). The below is the introduction of the drama source from TVB.com:

現今社會流行「速食」文化,愛情亦不例外。一紙婚書的承諾,剩下多少人懂得背後的真實重量?紛紛向現實妥協的人,先後成為飲食男女,令男女關係充滿功利計算。這個世上,還有誰願意悉心經營,還愛情一份尊重、堅持、守候和忠誠?



The following is the introduction also the synopsis of the drama source from TVB.com as well.

愛.失去信心
羅式適(陳茵媺飾),為人樂天知命,對一切倒霉事均是順來逆受。在她眼中,程展博(楊明飾)是個完美男朋友,在她有需要時,展博總會馬上現身,為她解決所有難題。所以,在式適眼中,展博是她的「幸運王子」。而一次在馬來西亞,朦朧間上演的一幕英雄救美,更讓展博乘勝追擊向式適求婚,抱得美人歸。

好景不常,式適和展博的訂婚禮,居然被惡意破壞,變成他倆的愛情葬禮。這個怪客,膽敢在眾賓客面前,播放展博和一名神秘女子的親密片段!向來百分百信任展博的式適,當然沒法接受未婚夫原來是生性風流。訂婚禮就在眾人大跌眼鏡的情況下宣佈取消,而式適的好姊妹黃淇英(高海寧飾),更被認定為幕後黑手!

男人這個時候,總會變成痴心漢子。失去式適的展博,對她久未忘情,決定重新向式適展開進求,再次化身「幸運王子」,為她解決與父親羅威(岳華飾)多年來的心結。感激之情頓成愛的助燃劑,二人終宣佈復合。可是江山易改本性難移,一次偶然下,式適竟親眼目賭展博再次偷歡……

愛.默默付出
陸恭梓(陳展鵬飾),看似玩世不恭,對女性口甜舌滑,是個浪蕩公子。偶然下,成為式適到馬來西亞公幹的地陪,二人初次見面已因工作關係留下壞印象。及後,二人再次相遇,因共同經歷及解決不同的問題,加上式適對人的熱誠,讓習慣人與人之間築起高牆的恭梓,開始卸下防備,心有所動。

每位浪子背後總有個故事,而香港唱作歌手康以蕎(姚子羚飾),就是這個故事的作者。原來恭梓曾是個作曲家,與以蕎相戀,更讓她一炮而紅。可惜以蕎竟貪戀名利而拋棄恭梓,讓恭梓變得不再相信愛情。如今她的事業跌入谷底,就希望恭梓可以協助她挽回事業……

這時候,展博與恭梓這對年少時的好兄弟重逢,展博希望得到恭梓幫助追回式適。沒想到恭梓念在昔日情義,甘心讓愛,並協助他解開式適多年的心結,終讓展博和式適成功復合。為免情傷,恭梓只好疏遠式適……


愛.說不出口
錢進(洪永城飾),是式適多年的好友,但錢進嘮叨的性格讓二人更像一對「姊妹」。展博的妹妹程展禛(林夏薇飾),隻身到馬來西亞希望成為甜品學廚,但因天份不足而被勸喻放棄。式適見她意志消沉,就要求錢進收她為徒。

但錢進對展禛極為嚴苛,在展禛眼中,錢進是一名「魔鬼教練」!加上展禛粗枝大葉的性格與錢進的「姿整企理」相比,二人更顯得水火不容!

直到一次,展禛的甜品終被人賞識,讓她了解錢進的用心良苦。而錢進對工作的認真與執着深深吸引展禛,心生愛慕。及後,展禛發現一段錢進醉酒後向式適表白的短片,始知錢進暗戀式適已久……


愛.是……
式適為了父親對展博偷歡一事啞忍,不過對愛已失去信心!展博能否令式適真正得到幸福?二人在情路上兜兜轉轉,最終可會分手收場?

暗戀式適多年的錢進,害怕表白又怕不說出來會留有遺憾,曖曖昧昧的關係會因展禛而有所突破?

恭梓為式適默默付出,且愛在心裏口難開!以蕎的介入讓二人越走越遠,而當式適知道恭梓曾幫助展博追回自己,更大怒而走。兩人的愛情就此無疾而終?


恭梓、錢進和展博,三個愛戀式適的男人,誰才是式適的Mr. Right?


After watching 5eps of the drama, I find it quite relaxing and okay la. Can't help but I find some of the scenes of the drama were quite misleading and confusing. But of course, there're some scenes that are worth to be praised as well as it really promote Penang island.

So do stay tune for my next post, mainly some rough comments on the first 5 eps of the drama. Hope it won't be too bad and won't offend anyone however they are still my personal opinions la. Let's see how it goes then only decide whether I shall do this weekly for the drama, LOL.


Friday, January 24, 2014

做我自己 - 文章分享

文章转发: 做你自己,不是每個人都要成為「交際花」
你總是對閱讀充滿興趣、喜歡安靜大過於喧鬧;總是被說不夠活潑,過於內向嗎?總是因為文靜不說話,而被說沒有主見、沒有自信?今天,講者Susan Cain將告訴內向者,內向的力量,無需害怕,無需刻意交際,做你自己,你並不會失去什麼。

Susan Cain以前總是有旁人告訴她:「安靜內向,不是一般人應該有的表現,我應該更活潑外向一點。」但是Susan Cain的直覺卻知道,內向是她最自然、最真實的自我表現,不過,她卻寧可聽信商場、職場上的交際道理,讓自己成為華爾街律師,常去熱門的酒吧應酬歡樂,即便骨子裡,她想要的是最平靜的與朋友吃頓飯,在家裡舒適的用筆電好好的工作,當個稱職的「作家」,Susan Cain下意識的做的這些舉動,實質的背離她個性的選擇,而她卻有好長段的時間渾然不覺。

很多內向者的這些舉動,也許是想印證:個性中是俱備「有能力」、「不無聊」、「風趣」等特質,但其實,內向者的這些舉動,影響到的不只是他個人「不能做自己」的損失,更是影響到我們的同僚,造成社會群眾的部分損失。聽起來也許嚴重,但正因為他們並沒有發揮內在的領導力與創造力,而建立了崗位的錯位,某些時候,良好的口才與內斂的專長,相較而言內斂的專長力量,將勝過「出一張嘴」。

世上有1/3至一半的人口是偏內向的,也就是說,每兩三人中就有一個內向人口,就算你本身是外向的,你的同事、你的另一半和你的小孩,還有你擦身而過的人們,都有可能是「被逼迫」外向、訓練口才、活潑的隱性受害者!這種深植於社會中的慣性,卻總在我們還不會說話時,就已被此思想內化。

為了更加明白這個偏見,我們是必瞭解什麼是「內向」

內向不是害羞,害羞是無法承受社會眼光;內向比較像是你對外在世界的反應。 外向的人需要很多的刺激,內斂的人相反,他們對自身感受敏銳,反而在不被注目時最能發揮他們的能耐;總會有例外,但大多如此,所以關鍵在於:去將各人的長才發揮至極致,適才所長,各司其職。

事實上,很多有改革力的偉大領袖是些內向的人。羅斯福、蘿莎帕克斯、甘地, 這些人對自我的描述都是內向且文靜,甚至害羞,他們矗立在鎂光燈下,並非因為他們天生愛指揮,也並不想萬眾矚目,他們成為領袖是因為一種使命感,因為「必須」,是責任感驅使他們做認為對的事情。

因此,內向的人,並沒有什麼不好,也沒有一定要成為「外向」、「交際者」的理由,你可以全然地做自己,無論你是哪種樣子,你都要記得,你都是最美好的那個樣子,無需因為自己的一時脆弱、內向、柔軟、剛硬、衝動等等,而感到挫折,你可以全然地做自己,尤其是在你的工作崗位上。

撰文:Aler

Original Post from TEDx TAIPEI

大概是在半年前吧,无意间看见这篇文章和视频。其实也不知道自己是不是内向内。反正向无罪,不管是内向or外向,只有在适当的时候适当的时间发言才是最明智的选择。

Thursday, January 23, 2014

I am fine.

以前总是很努力的尝试
尝试融入不同的组别 不同的人群里
以前一直以为说身边有很多朋友   总是可以呼风唤雨
离开了学校以后   才发现原来自己一无所有
慢慢的   长大以后   才发现  
嗯   是自己的问题
交际能力有限    都好像都会遇到了瓶颈
性格傲慢自卑毒舌又带有点孤僻
This is what called life
每个人都须度过他需要经历的生活
也许这就是 what I deserve
说实在 我更享受一个人的moment
孤单  是一个人的狂欢
独自一个人久了 慢慢的成了习惯
不要问我是寂寞难耐 害怕孤单 怕闷
对我而言 一群人围在一起 没话题聊 那才是真正的孤单

你可以尽情的批评我
说我自暴自弃 甚至说我自己装可怜 还是自我放弃
我只可以告诉你
因为你不是我  只有我才最了解我自己

I am who I am.
我很好,我过得很好。
一切安好,别来无恙。

























这一篇跟上一篇那一晚很emo,内容很相像,也许我不够细腻,感觉来来去去就是这个样。还是emo久了,自然而然的就慢慢继续emo。很多时候,也许emo emo就好了。

在马来西亚的一个 月,在家呆了3个星期之感慨。以前哥哥说我表达能力有问题;现在相处不到一个星期他竟然说我需要上辅导课,特别是那种加强自信心的课。我只想说我很好,过得很好,不需要做出任何生活或思维上的改变。感恩!

自信心这块,有时候不是高与低,有与没有的问题。我是觉得说适当时候有着适当的自信心才是最重要的, low profile 也可以是很不错的。 凡事都有两面。每个人都有他自己的使命,有他必须过的生活。I am fine, at least at the moment right now.




人生来就是孤独的,不要奢望能够依靠谁,哪怕是至亲至爱。越是喧嚣处,往往更孤独。心系一处,自走自路。孤独是人生必走的路、必吃的苦。苦到尽头,甘自来。狮子不怕孤独,所以强大;羚羊喜欢群居,因为弱小。人生无处不修行,能在孤独中心静如水,才能在纷扰里安然无恙。

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Funny !!!

I guess the most popular word for now, the beginning of 2014 will definitely be kangkung, LOL. My FB page was flooded with the word for the past 2 days. Actually I didn't really know what's happening until last night when I saw the video ... And yeah, we have made it to the international news headline again. Thank you kangkung !!! Cant help, but I have got the urge to share the news here in my blog. Do have a read at the news if you still have no idea WTH is happening in the country. Have a great laugh ahead ^^

1) News from BBC UK
#BBCtrending: Be careful what you say about spinach


Malaysia's prime minister is being widely lampooned on social media for a comment he made about the price of kangkung, or water spinach.

Food is a faux pas minefield for politicians, especially when it's perceived as being used in a get-down-with-the-people kind of way - think of British Prime Minister David Cameron's pasty moment or Chancellor George Osborn's "posh burger" tweet. The almost inevitable response seems to be ridicule. That's where the Malaysian Prime Minister Najib Razak finds himself right now. With the government under fire because of price hikes in basics like fuel and electricity, he choose to push back by highlighting a reduction in the cost of the leafy green vegetable kangkung.

Kangkung - also known as water spinach, morning glory and Chinese spinach - is widely eaten in Malaysia, and is cooked as a stir-fry with a little garlic or chilli paste. But it's cheap, grows wild alongside streams, paddy fields and drains, and is not considered a staple. Moments after a video of the prime minister was posted making the comments, the sarcasm and jokes began to trend on social media in Malaysia. There have been hundreds of thousands of tweets, a Facebook page set up - with 10,000 followers already - a YouTube re-mix of his comments, the lyrics topopular and traditional folk songs have been re-worked, and "Keep calm and eat kangkung" T-shirts have been made and rushed to market.

"Kangkung-gate", as it's been dubbed by some, has hit a nerve because many people are struggling with the rising cost of living, and are resentful of what they regard as corruption, and lavish spending by the government. Unsurprisingly many opposition politicians - including Anwar Ibrahim - have seized on the opportunity to join in the collective fun-poking. The story has been so big on social media that many have complained of their timelines being clogged up. "This kangkung obsession is fast becoming a laughing stalk," tweeted comedian Kuah Jenhan. "Lettuce get to the root of the problem. We have mushroom for improvement."

Reporting by Cordelia Hebblethwaite
Source from: BBC UK

2) News from ET Today Taiwan
上任5年萬物瘋漲還失言 馬國網友批首相:空心菜之父



▲馬來西亞首相拉薩克被網友批評是空心菜首相,有關空心菜的東西全被網友拿來惡搞。(圖/取自Omakkau
國際中心/綜合報導

馬來西亞現任首相納吉•拉薩克(Abdul Razak)五年前上任以來,國內物價頻頻飛漲導致民怨不斷,許多人揶揄他是「漲價之父」。先前拉薩克面臨民生物資狂漲的情形,竟說「可是空心菜有降價」企圖為自己辯護,引來網友批評「拉薩克要成為『空心菜之父』了」。
根據《星洲日報》及《東方日報》報導,拉薩克先前曾發表演說,指出人民只會在物價上漲的時候責怪政府,可是空心菜價格下降,民眾卻沒有讚賞政府。此番言論一出,引來網友強烈不滿,許多人以空心菜為創作主題,把麥當勞的大麥克照片變成「空心菜麥克」,也有不少人揶揄拉薩克根本就是「空心菜首相」、「空心菜之父」。
馬來西亞民主行動黨議員黃泉安表示,從2013年大選到現在,漲價的民生用品和食品多到數不清,而且物價飛漲的同時,人民所得也沒有相對提升。現在只是區區一樣空心菜降價而已,拉薩克就不斷宣揚,實在很可笑。

Source from : ET Today

No matter the price of kangkung increased or decreased, I guess the people in Malaysia are still suffering from the sudden inflation and the GST that is on its way !!! Life is so susah sialll ...


Sunday, January 12, 2014

矛盾

回来差不多两个星期了
原本坚固的决定已开始动摇
是我不坚持还是太执着
我也不知道

那一天跟朋友走进书局
看见各式各样的文具
真的很心动
很有想要准备开学的感觉
那种期待那种兴奋
真的难以形容

继续深造 vs 踏进社会大学
想了想   摸一摸头脑
是我真的爱念书想继续学习
还是
是我为念书而念书为签证而念书
还是
是我纯粹想逃避不想面对现实

站在十字路口
我该如何决定
怎样才会是最好的决定
前路茫茫
我该何去何从







猫喜欢吃鱼,可猫不会游泳。鱼喜欢吃蚯蚓,可鱼又不能上岸。上天给了你很多诱惑,却不让你轻易得到。但是,总不能流血就喊痛,怕黑就开灯,想念就联系。今天再大的事,到了明天就是小事;今年再大的事,到了明年就是故事。我们最多也就是个有故事的人,所以,人生就像蒲公英,看似自由,却身不由己。有些事,不是不在意,而是在意了又能怎样。自己全力以赴就好,人生没有如果,只有后果和结果。


Sunday, January 5, 2014

2014

It's been a while since I last updated my blog.And it's now 2014.
So as usual, goodbye 2013 and welcome 2014 (though it's a bit late huh).
Even though new year is just same shits but different days,
I still have to wish everyone Happy New Year !!!
Have a great year ahead =)



赶在2014前回家了!很多人都说陪你度过13、14的那个人很重要,因为那个人将会陪你度过你的一生一世。
话说如此,可是我并不这么认为。2013 到 2014 , 不管谁陪你度过所谓的一生一世,人生嘛,除了自己还是自己,除了要快乐还是要快乐!嗯,快乐就那么简单,简单也就快乐。

新的一年,不需要太花俏的new year resolution。未来还有很长的路要走,2014或许是很艰难的一年。但,愿一切顺顺利利!我爱的人和爱我的人要平安、健康、快乐!B哥,你要健康,要早日康复!2014,我们会更好的,一切都会更好的!!!


前路茫茫,不知何去何从。。。
2014要加油!!!