Monday, April 22, 2013

Bad news

剩下一个星期的sem break。原本想说,享受假期之余,休息够了,应该是时候开始准备作业和复习。

先是看了很多某阵党为了在来届大选能够胜出而不择手段的新闻感到悲哀。想不到我们大家其实是在一个极度腐败的环境下茁壮成长,幸好的是我们大家都还懂得分辨是非。接着就看到四川不幸的发生地震的新闻。在4月20日傍晚祈祷槟城下大雨之余,之后又在网络上看见一个很难以置信的新闻,那就是我最爱的新加坡资深艺人黄文永逝世了。真的很难相信,因为今年头还在荧幕上看见他的演出,you will always stay in our heart and you will be missed。


在还没回过魂来时,收到哥传来的简讯说婆婆不舒服。顿时又愣住了一下,心想不是吧,我弱小的心灵一次过是接受不了那么多打击的!他说就知道不舒服,不知道具体的资料。难得出门和朋友一起聚餐的我,外出时突然收到妈妈的简讯说,婆婆轻微中风了。。。我真的不知道该如何反应,只想当场痛哭一场!鉴于在公众场合,我唯有拼命的忍住眼泪直到聚餐后,上了火车最终忍不住默默地落泪。回家的路途上,心情慢慢地平复了。想不到在大半夜里,我又忍不住了。很想很想马上冲回家拥抱婆婆。脑子里一直出现离开家,要回来念书时婆婆拥抱我,叫我要好好念书的画面。也许我什么也帮不上忙,除了默默祈祷,就是把书读好,顺利毕业。其实,我一直以来唯一的心愿就是希望能能像表哥表姐一样穿上毕业礼服和婆婆一起合照。这样的要求,算不算太高!?





Keep reminding myself to be happy and stay strong !!!

写不下去了,太苦逼了~
晚安!


Monday, April 15, 2013

Sem Break

Finally the long-awaited sem break is here !

Nothing excited about this break as the Melbourne plan most probably has to call off due to some reason. And I've to major assignments to hand-in after the break. So by hook or by crook, I still have to stay at home to complete them. Unfortunately, one of them is a group assignment which I hate the most. A group of five, from different cultures and backgrounds thou all are asians. Hope that we wouldn't have any communication barriers and can cooperate to at least produce something good @.@.

Fell sick in the first day of the break, down with flu and sorethroat like again !  And had high-fever during that night, worst feeling ever as I was sweating in the middle of the night. So in the end, had to cancel the plan of visiting Watson Bay for the very first time. Hmm, hope I can still visit there during the break ....



Have to do some catch up for all the units before it's too late. It gotta be another hard one right after the semester commences ! Life ain't easy !!! Have to enjoy while completing the tasks before uni starts again. Ughh, have forgotten what to write in this post, so just crap something out of nothing.


只是想说:把旧的博客给上锁,不是因为懦弱更不是害怕面对自己的过去。只是觉得做人有必要学会放下,这样未来的路才会变得更踏实。


变 是唯一的不变!

现实生活中,我们周围的人时时刻刻都在变。问题是,你有察觉吗?

Sunday, April 7, 2013

New


I don't know what to say ~
I don't know how to say ~

I find it hard, hard  to express myself , my real feelings. Language is a problem, grammatical errors would be another plus I'm not expressive at all. And it is actually getting worst I think. I know it's kinda joke in the eyes of my relatives, yes laugh out loud. I was labelled as the quiet one in class recently, and the lecturer aka tutor even doubt whether I understood the contents as I showed her the face of my innocence. LOL. So not me, it's just not me. And I didn't even know how to response to her, coz it never happens before I guess. Just a smile, but I think it's really hard for me to smile in this awkward situation.

Somehow I think I lost the enthusiasm in blogging. Sometimes I have got so many things to tell, but I just don't have the time and the kick to write. But when I do have it, I normally ended up writing nothing. This is life, life goes on.




Loner is still lonely.

Due to some personal reasons, such as there're too much of immature aka childish posts in the past,
I've actually decided to lock up all my past posts. They're locked indeed. They should only be visible and remembered by me, haha. But I can't guarantee that maturity level of my state of mind in the future posts. However, I'd retained the blog's link, so I will continue to write it here. This is somehow my NEW blog, not a new life but may be a turning point of my life. No, nothing to announce to the world but taking the baby steps, trying hard to express myself.




Don't pray for life to be easy, but pray for yourself to be strong.